No kids and a horse atm. Take your money and invest it in yourselves. Horses and kids are expensive as fuck

GOP is sure its possible

Always love yourself first, then love someone else. Its easy to settle, but its tough to find the right person, but they do exist

Sounds like your lack of an emotional connection is being funneled through physical attention. You might be attacking the wrong feeling. I would still recommend a therapist not just a random guy on lemmy. I’m positive you can find a solution, I will always reccomend that you know yourself before you go into a relationship because we all tend to lose ourselves.

But in maintaining the need for physical touch you are likely making your need worse. Therapy is never a bad option and in all reality, the need of physical touch may also be a point of contention and arguments in any future relationship. Guys suck at it, especially ones with trauma, so you need to learn to be self sufficient.

It sounds like you dont know who you are. Take a minute alone and learn how to be independent and love the things you love, then stroll into your next relationship more confident and mature. You are desperately jumping into relationships to fill a void instead of being interested in the person you are dating.